Who knew these dark muses could set the quills of so many fine poet-friends a-quiver? I know what I will be reading on the tube for the rest of this week–poems like Jackson Wheeler‘s “Crow Sings Jazz” and a promising-sounding one by Paul Fericano, ever obsessed with The Three Stooges, entitled “Curly Howard Misreads Edgar Allen Poe.”

My own poem, “Shelf Road, Ojai” (originally titled “Crow”) qualified me first for an honourable mention in the Atlantic Monthly Student Poetry Competition, then as a runner-up in the Indiana Review Poetry Prize–but has never actually been published before. Re-reading it brings me back to the eponymous trail in a Shangri-La now some six thousand miles away. Perhaps all along these messages-in-a-bottle I call poems were only ever meant to return to me on the shores of a different island, to remind me of who I was, and who was with me, everywhere that I have been.

The anthology is now available at local bookstores or on Amazon.com.

Photo by James Brunskill

I am pleased to have two poems appear in the inaugural issue of Aperçus Quarterly. The poetry section features fine poems by colleagues and mentors such as Boyd W. Benson, Cameron Scott, Marvin Bell, and Peter Sears. The collection is  a manageable size, and each poem is worth a read. The images beneath each poem are also striking, evocative, and well-chosen to compliment the written piece.

I wrote the poem “White Pigeons” while still in Ojai. There is a coop nearby my parents’ house. Re-reading the poem from my office in Soho makes me homesick for a place that now seems so far away as to almost have been imagined. It is, for me, a pleasant kind of haunting. Enjoy the poems.

Although the timeline is not yet clear for our move, we decided that it was important to reach out now to our community of friends for support. Also, this gives us the opportunity to start to say “goodbye” to so many wonderful people on this continent.

We are especially fond of Ojai, the small town in California we have called home for the past several years. The word “ojai” means “nest” in the language of the Chumash Indians who first inhabited this area. Indeed, it has been a nest for us in which to be nurtured and grow strong. Now we fledge.

I will miss the wonderful friends we have made here, as well as the ten-minute ride to work on my bicycle, along the oak-lined Ojai trail with the California sunshine beaming through. But we have wanted for some time to have more access to Europe, and London itself is one of my favorite cities in the world. I look forward to getting to know both the poetry and technology communities there.

Our plan is to relocate as soon as we reasonably and responsibly can–making a graceful transition from my roles at the David Allen Company, and having time to say goodbyes to so many remarkable people here.

For now, I leave you with the news of our intentions, and the following short video:

Photo by Randy Graham

I broke away from work to attend the dedication ceremony for my neighbor Mark Benkert’s new memorial sculpture to the Aliso Street Bear (a.k.a “Elliot”). In introducing me to read the poem I wrote dedicated to the bear, Mark also mentioned something remarkable about the process of sculpting the memorial.

For both Mark and I, the loss of the bear resonated deeply with the loss of our sons. As Mark was inscribing the letters “J” and “B”, the initials of his son, Jonah Benkert, the “B” also read much like a “P”–and he mentioned that “J.P.” reminded him of our own son, James Peake. Needless to say that by the time I took the microphone, I was nearly unable to speak.

Yet I managed to read my poem, honoring the bear, our sons, our community. The rest of the dedication meant a lot to me–from written poems and prose pieces, to impromptu verbal tributes, a song, and drumming. It was also a moment of catharsis for our community, coming together once more to honor all that the bear brought to us.

To learn more about how to promote the peaceful coexistence of humans and animals in the Ojai Valley, please visit the Ojai Wildlife League website.

To learn more about how to promote the peaceful coexistence of humans and animals in the Ojai Valley, please visit the Ojai Wildlife League website.

To the Bear in a Neighbor’s Tree

How quickly we become accustomed to the light,
blinking through discomfort, standing upright,
when our claws break, we fashion tools, use
them, and then just as easily put them down.

We discover clumps of hair on the ground,
and see our lack of fur as a great improvement,
stamping and shivering, we like a cold wind!
When our night vision fades, we stumble a dance.

Now, we have lost you too, primeval cousin,
lost the instinct that might have guided us
in shooing you back where you came from.
We can no longer smell what is on the wind.

You sat all day in a tree, learning our gestures.
You waved at the crowds and considered making a speech.
When you became too much like us, we brought you down,
and hauled your massive blackness into the night.

The truth is that we lost you long ago, long before
our friends loaded up their guns. Look how far
we have come! Our fingers fit the triggers.
And still we remember not to look in an animal’s eyes.

I looked, and became frozen on my couch.
I blinked into the sunlight, and you were gone.
The black spot in the tree is no longer you.
It is the place that you have burned into my mind.

To learn more about how to promote the peaceful coexistence of humans and animals in the Ojai Valley, please visit the Ojai Wildlife League website.

I paused, remembering my father’s story of having been nose-to-nose with a grizzly bear, separated only by mosquito netting–the story he told on Boy Scout camp outs that kept us awake in our tents all night. “No,” I replied, “No, honey, you don’t. You want to see a bear in a photograph. You want to see a bear on a nature documentary. You don’t ever want to see a real, live bear up close.”

Photo by Erin Ellwood

When I heard our neighbor exclaim, “Call animal control!” late Friday night, I assumed raccoons had found their trash. I rolled over and went back to sleep. In the morning, we discovered several police vehicles parked on our street, and a crowd gathering on our front lawn. In the night, a several-hundred-pound Black Bear had scaled our neighbor’s back fence, bounded down the gravel footpath between our houses and, confused by the people and lights, followed his instincts up a large pine tree across the street.

People came to take pictures. People brought their small children, and hoisted them up on their shoulders to get a better view. Eventually, the police cordoned off the street, and still people gathered along the line of yellow police tape to catch a glimpse of the bear. From our living room couch, the cat and I sat and watched him–napping on a branch, shifting his considerable weight, hugging the trunk of the tree. At one point, he seemed to be waving, fanning the air with paws the size of my head. I got to watch the bear, closely and safely, for a long time. And I fell in love.

Meanwhile, the authorities below patrolled the street, glancing up only long enough to make sure that the bear was not coming down. Their primary concern was public safety–and for this, I am grateful. They responded bravely in the middle of the night to an emergency call describing hundreds of pounds of muscle, claw, and teeth ambling through the middle of town. And they stayed on, keeping watch over us, and him, all day.

I spoke to one of the Sheriffs about their plan. He explained that they would wait until dusk, in hopes that the bear would come down and wander back into the woods, escorted by the authorities. If the bear went the right way, peacefully, he would be fine. If he charged someone, they would have to kill it. “He knows where he needs to go,” the Sheriff smiled, and I detected a note of respect in his words, which comforted me. Perhaps he too had met the great creature’s gaze, and understood what was at stake.

I heard other explanations, from various people, about why the authorities could not simply tranquilize and relocate the bear right away. The problems were threefold: first, that the fall could hurt him, second, that they could not hold him somewhere safely while the tranquilizer wore off, and finally that a hunter could get sick if he later shot the bear and ate the meat before the drugs had all left the bear’s system. But putting a net under the tree, finding a secure place for the bear to recover, tagging him to prevent a hunter from getting sick, or releasing him in to a protected area sufficiently large to ensure that he wouldn’t get hunted and killed before the drugs wore off–all seemed to be out of the question. Everything rested on the bear coming down from the tree, and walking peacefully back home.

I returned from dinner later that evening to find another officer tearing down the blockade. The man wrapping up the tape and removing the traffic cones told me that the bear became agitated, that they shot him out of the tree with tranquilizers, and that now they were going to put him down.

Photo by Valerie Kampmeier

I woke this morning with a strange thought: our town protects oak trees from being destroyed unless they are diseased beyond salvation–but not Black Bears? It makes no sense.

Our neighbor on the other side of our house is a sculptor. He got up early this morning and welded together rusted iron sheeting into the shape of a bear. He hoisted it into the tree where the bear used to be. People laid flowers beneath the tree, on the spot where the creature fell. Now, when I look out my window, across the street, I see an uncanny silhouette–the same huge outline I saw yesterday. But gone are the slow and graceful movements, the by turns confused and curiously searching eyes.

Photo by Valerie Kampmeier

The bear didn’t want to see me up close any more than I wanted to see him. But ultimately, I was the liability, and therefore the danger. By my association with civic officials determined to protect me, and a system of thinking whose conclusion was the animal’s death, a creature so much larger than me physically has opened up questions much bigger than any of us–about how we can live in harmony with the staggering, sometimes terrifying power of nature, without doing harm.

Now I am the one who is confused, and curious–full of questions I think are worth asking, questions that ultimately all lead to this: how can we make sure that something like this doesn’t have to happen again? It is a question I intend to ask our community–surprised by this sudden arrival, and now heartbroken by his death–searching for the highest branch we can find, to make sense of what this visitor brought to us, and laid before us to consider, in his death.

To learn more about how to promote the peaceful coexistence of humans and animals in the Ojai Valley, please visit the Ojai Wildlife League website.

On the contrary, the atmosphere was friendly and casual, aided in part by the well-received happy hour offer of one dollar off organic beer and wine. The patio was packed, and chatty at intermission. P. Lyn Middleton did an excellent job emceeing the evening, with just the right blend of structure and southern grace. This was the second in what appears to be a very promising new series of readings, and the perfect way to spend a summer evening in Ojai.

The open mic was remarkable for the raw, authentic nature of each piece. And, special bonus, my father read a poem as well–something he hadn’t done since he was nineteen, and read at an open mic prior to the feature of a different Robert–Robert Frost.

Many thanks to Tree Bernstein and The Jester for bringing good people to a good spot to share some poems. I can’t think of a better way to start the week.

Funnily enough, although we only live a few pretty blocks apart in the sleepy idyll that is Ojai, she found out about my rekindled interest in Heaney from this website. Who says blogging doesn’t have its rewards? In the end I have only to say: thank you, Kelly. I will use it well.

“A writer is a reader moved to emulation”

I have been preparing notes for my upcoming talk on “Emulation, Originality, And The Writing Tradition” at the Ojai Center For The Arts. There is no better place than London to have spent time thinking about the English literary tradition. In this talk I intend to use concrete examples from my own relationship to the writing life, including poems and anecdotes, to show how emulation–as defined by a desire to imitate and transcend the spirit and tactical successes of works one admires–can actually enhance originality.

So many poets are concerned about losing their voice, and so many poets and non-poets hold the misbelief that art can exist in a vacuum–or that inspiration strikes best in a sealed cave, cut off from tradition. My hope is to inspire the audience into participating in the continuity of literary tradition through reading widely and responding genuinely to our rich heritage of literary arts.